Who are you and why should I care?
Just a girl who tries to write a lot, reads as often and doesn’t take things too seriously. You shouldn’t too. Unless ,of course, you want to. My name is Deborah “Dee” Caulcrick and I’m 18 years old. I grew up and live in Surulere, Lagos, and will most probably continue to live here until I can afford a mansion somewhere on the island or get tired of this country. After I was done with secondary school, I didn’t get admission into any university. It’s 2019, and I’m home, “supposedly” preparing to write my fourth JAMB exam (read= blogging and working on my first novel).
What do you write about?
The profound ability of life to suck. I’m no genius, but I do know that one truth. Nothing’s rosy and happiness comes from knowing life sucks and doing something about it not hiding under a bed (read: cloud of assumption that being all positive will make the suckiness go away). It’s not going to happen. I also write about my art. And by art I mean, everything that make me, me. The way I talk, speak, work, think, dress, do everything. It’s my, beliefs, experiences, my journey, my mistakes, my sick sense of humor. That is what art is.
Your life pretty much sucks, why do you write about all these stuff?
Everyone’s life sucks, some just less than others. The suckiness is what makes life, life. I write for me, first and foremost. I don’t share these ideas because I think I’m right and everyone else is wrong. I’m 18 for God’s sake, I’m just figuring life out. But the truth is I’ve done a lot of figuring out that most people my age and older haven’t even started yet. I write about all these stuff, because I’ve been wrong about so many things and sharing my misjudgements and mistakes on a public platform may help a whole lot of people.
What is your philosophy?
Everyone’s going to die. Sad and depressing, but very true. There will come a time when you realise that your time on this earth has come to an end and there is nothing you can do about it. Except hunt down Death and tie him up, but I don’t think that’s an option. We’re all going to die someday so spend your short time on earth doing the things you absolutely care about.
There are 7 billion people in this world and the number of things to care about is more than a 100 hundred times that number. Dump the unimportant stuff, pick the stuff you love. Life sucks and there are problems everywhere. Avoiding problems makes things worse, so learn to pick your problems. Pick the stuff you worry about, pick the stuff you devote your time to, pick the stuff you spend your money on and the things you think about.
The world is filled with a whole lot of problems and every second they’ll be dancing around your life, screaming, “pick me! Pick me!” Choose your problems wisely. It’ll make you a happier person.
Stop trying to prove yourself all the time to anyone. You are you, and most people aren’t going to appreciate that, so why get miserable trying? God loves me, and you, and everybody on this planet and that’s all. We did not have to do anything to earn that love and we still don’t. Going to school and getting a degree is important, but if it makes you miserable, why bother? Why waste all that time and money? What are you trying to prove?
We’re all on earth for a reason, and it’s not to prove anything to anyone, not even God.
Have you written a book?
I have uncompleted books that will never see the sun rise. I have a short story published on Okadabooks. I am currently working on my first full length novel, starring Simi Grey, my best buddy (he’s fictional and claims to be my alter ego) which is set in old Yorubaland. I get story ideas everyday, but I just write them down, except they’re so good, I’ll dump whatever I’m doing and start on it immediately.
Why did you start this site?
My first blog was started in 2016 for fun, out of curiosity and a way shy, introverted me could get her thoughts out there. I wasn’t really consistent but I posted stuff, from short stories to serial fiction and personal essays. A few years went by and I realised a) I cared about writing more than anything else, and b) it was the only thing I was really good at, and c) it was something I wanted to build a career out of. So January 2019, I decided to take it seriously and I bought a domain name and hosting and I’m devoting (almost) all my time into it. My writing, planning and content creating skills have improved, so I’m doing something right.
How did you learn about all this stuff?
- I read a lot. While everyone was playing and talking about boys, I was reading. I mostly read (and write) fiction and that has a way of making you think about life in general. It also turns you into a detective, finding out and investigating what works and what doesn’t, what is the truth and what isn’t.
- I have philosophers, psychologists, and writers as friends. If that doesn’t make you learn stuff, I don’t know what will.
- I get bored easily. That’s why I have so many learning experiences. Getting tired and fed up with things, causes you to dig deeper and find out more. I’ve done a lot of things out of impulse and made crazy, stupid mistakes. I started my first day job and quit. I’ve taught and taken care of little children. I learnt how to sew, bake, make beads and quit halfway. I stopped going to church for a while, I quit being the teens president of my church, I lost interest in a lot of activities and people. I made some money, spent it and was broke again. I’ve said some mean and hurtful things to the people I cared about. I skipped almost all my classes in secondary school. I’m writing Jamb for the fourth time in a row. I’m saying all these because real living and learning only comes through failures. As of recent, I’ve never shied away from it. Failure keeps coming back again and again with different faces and tricks. It’s never boring.
- I do my research. If people are going to listen to me, I should be well-informed.
Are you on social media?
I hate/love you. Can I send you an email?
Do you do interviews/ public speaking and appearances?
I’m not a celebrity and neither am I popular but I secretly have a love for speaking. I would be delighted to speak to a group of young people. Just head over to my contact page and leave a message or give a call.
Can I go now?